What would it be like to live and work at the heart of a forest? I put this question to artist and educator Valerianna Claff, whose RavenWood Forest Studio nestles among the hemlocks of western
Massachusetts....

"Early morning sun finds its way through
the trees in long, angled rays," writes Valerianna, describing a typical day at RavenWood. "Dew rises from the glistening mosses
becoming a gentle mist, a hermit thrush sings far off in the forest.
I sit in a chair outside the back door, watching the majesty of the
morning, taking note of the inch or two of unfurling the ferns have
managed since yesterday. Sipping coffee, I mostly look and listen –
a kind of morning meditation – letting my mind wander and feeling
the shape of twinleaf and foamflower in my body. I feel the gentle
movement of the long, lacelike hemlock boughs, blown by a slight
movement of air. The towering trunks bring me to the awareness of my
spine and I watch as a red eft meanders through the woodland garden.
I rise and pinch a bit of new spring hemlock needles, put it in my
mouth, tasting yellow-greenness and a slight hint of citrus. Under
the Grandmother tree, I bend and pick a partridge berry – not very
tasty – but offering some red to my morning nutrition. Kicking off
my clogs, I find a place on the mosses, and go through my Qigong
routine. Swatting at mosquitoes, I wish I might become evolved enough
to let them be. Pasha brushes past my leg, damp from his morning
wander, full of purrs and stories, a wild glint in his green-gold
eyes.


Pasha
"It has been ten years since I came to
this forest, and I think I am beginning to know something of the
nature here. I am not so far from civilization, only a mile from the
center of town, but such a tiny town with nothing more than a library
(about the size of my downstairs), a general store, church, fire
station, post office and a few bed-and-breakfasts. Not one stoplight
or gas station or pub. Livestock and wildlife outnumber people, and
the lack of human-made sounds is noticeable. Unlike my years in the
city, when I hear a lawnmower here, it seems to bring me some
comfort, as if to say, no, you are not completely alone in the
wilderness. A twenty-minute drive brings me to Northampton, a small
city with a big heart. From there, the road leads to small towns and
cities, famous educational institutions, museums and the house of
Emily Dickenson, which seems always to be waving at me from across
the valley.
"When I arrived here, I had a plan of a
small retreat center with drum circles and large seasonal gatherings
and guest teachers and performances. Wandering the land in that first
autumn, my plans fell off me, floating to the earth to mingle with
oak leaves. As I began to feel the spirit of this forest, I
understood that this was not a place of grand views and loud,
expansive expression, but a quiet, inward land, asking for listening
and rooting and reflecting beside still pools and moss covered
ledges. On the first misty walk my mother took with me here, she said
she was expecting King Arthur to ride over the hill, as the land
seemed to be whispering stories as we walked.

"As the steward of a deep and inward
forest, I am called to sit and listen and trust in stillness. Again
and again, as the twenty-first century woman that I am becomes
uncomfortable with stillness, I am asked to wait, to listen longer,
remain still, root deeper.
"The seasonal gatherings to celebrate
Equinoxes and Solstices do happen, but they are small, intimate
gatherings around a small fire where songs and stories are shared and
owls and coyotes offer their calls to the circle. Small groups of
seekers come to do their inner work, learning from the stillness and
remembering something about dreaming and how to let their bodies be
held by the earth and to find ways of communicating and knowing
beyond words and intellect.

"The forest has taught me – as any
wild place would – to embrace the long, dark days of winter as a
time to nourish the soul with fire and stories and deep, deep
dreaming. I understand something of a dark underworld journey, and
the enormous gifts of seeing it through to the end. A few years ago,
after the loss of a loved one, I found myself on such a journey… it
seemed to never end. I had to ignore impulses to go out and manifest
and DO as a stronger voice continued to tell me to wait. One cold
February morning, I awoke with a clear knowing of how to move outward
again. I understood that I needed to bring my teaching more fully to
the forest, to integrate all the parts of me, to share my
relationship with the wild and to invite others to know stillness. I
needed a grant to build a studio. I looked up a grant I had heard
about that offers assistance to forest-based businesses encouraging
forest owners to keep their land forested. The grant had not given
out money in several years, but that year they were offering grants
and the application was due in a month. I applied, got the grant, and
RavenWood Forest, Studio of Mythic & Environmental Arts was
built.

"A precious gift I have received from
this forest is the gift of remembering. Finding a place just far
enough away from the bustle, where the wild feels bigger than the
human world, I remember myself as a soul being, quite removed from
the definitions, boxes and labels that culture puts on me. When the
owl comes to spend the day on her sunny perch outside my window, or a
bear lumbers by, or I find a luna moth resting in a shady spot under
a leaf, or I walk out to a garden filled with hundreds of dragon
flies, darting this way and that, I am entranced and fully present
with what is left of the wild within me.
Owl on her perch
A bear comes out of the trees, seeking ants to eat
"But there are shadows here, too. One
cannot spend years peering into the dark, still pools without being
brought to one’s knees. Living alone here, I sometimes need to seek
refuge in a town to walk around and look in shops and NOT be down
under the towering trees. I need to go to the ridge top and be loud
and expansive. My job as an adjunct art professor helps with getting
me out, and, as teaching does, keeps my world full of young folk and
forces me out of dreaming and into intellectual conversation. This is
good for me. The long commute and the less than fair pay isn’t so
good, but I stay connected.
"So it might seem that I have become a
bit like the witch in the woods, like the character from my favorite
childhood film, “The Three Lives of Thomasina”. She lives in an
idyllic cottage in the forest, knows the language of birds and foxes,
grows her own food and is the wise woman healer that the children
bring their injured animals to. This is the romantic version, in
truth, I can’t quite get enough light for a vegetable garden to
grow well, there is a big mortgage to pay, I live very close to the
financial edge, and my sensitivities to chemicals and mold have me
flattened more than active these days.
"Being flattened however, isn’t always
a negative thing, I am called to stillness again, and there is good
medicine in that. As a storyteller in image, words and song, whose
inspiration is the mystery of the forest, quiet dreaming is essential
to my creative work. This past year, as I grieve the loss of my
mother, and am healing the roots of my illness, I find myself
painting images that tell the stories of the deep forest. I’m
beginning to get at the essence of this place - a dark and mysterious
woodland – with gentle wildflowers growing from the leaf mold, and
root-tangled caverns under fallen trees that might well lead to the
underworld. The stories that find me here are fierce as well as
gentle. I live amongst large predators who might eat my beloved cat
friend or even me, where the tiny Woolly Adelgid threatens to kill
all my trees, and the well has run dry once or twice, leaving the
herbs in the garden to wilt. I sometimes fantasize about life in a
gypsy caravan, traveling from town to town, telling stories and
singing with my drum, but I am more like a tree than a
songbird, and its good to know who I am, lest I follow someone else’s
dream and find myself utterly lost without my tribe of trees.
"Late Winter Forest,” watercolor, 11” x 15”, V. Claff, 2013
"Strange Light,” watercolor, 22" x 30", V. Claff, 2013
"Forest Mystery,” watercolor, 22" x 30”, V. Claff, 2013
"I spread my mother’s ashes in the
moss garden on the last day of May, as she asked me to do. I think
about the blessing of this – of how humans of old stayed where
their ancestor’s bones decayed and became part of the soil, and how
their very DNA became a part of that land. I wonder how living on
land where one’s ancestors have been buried for centuries might be
– would it be easier to speak with stones? Will the mosses begin to
whisper their secrets to me, now that my mother’s spirit mingles
with the ground here?
"Winter Mists,” watercolor, 11” x 15”, V. Claff, 2013
"The path beneath my feet is soft and
spongy. I think about the generations of trees that have fallen to
earth and become this ground, the tree-ancestors of the forest. Bones
of the Eastern Woodland Indians and the first European settlers, long
gone to dust, mingle here. The bear who didn’t put on enough fat
before an unusually long winter is curled beneath the roots of an
enormous pine tree, her body nourishing its roots as she dreams her
forever dream. As I walk, I hear the call of a raven, shattering the
quiet and filling the vast space between us. I sit on a boulder I
call the whispering stone, my quiet cat beside me, listening as the
raven’s call fades and the sound of black wings thrums past
overhead."


"Three Seed Stones," ink on paper, V. Claff
To
see more of Valerianna's beautiful work and learn more about the
RavenWood Forest Studio of Mythic & Environmental Arts, please visit
the RavenWood website and blog.